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All My Ailments


If I had a fractured bone and ignored it I would be in constant pain, it would heal incorrectly, cause indirect repercussions in my life such as missed work, crankiness, and no doubt would bother me the rest of my life.   I had that happen once, I had a hairline fracture in my collarbone from a motorcycle accident.  The EMT's never checked my neck or shoulder as they were all worried about my ankle (which was not hurt).  At any rate my shoulder, arm, and neck kept hurting and I kept taking aspirin and going to the doctor who used a tens unit, gave me muscle relaxants and said use heat. 

Finally, after 6 weeks he sent me for an xray.  Sure enough, I had a fracture that had healed incorrectly.  There was nothing to be done without rebreaking the bone so I wore a sling for a couple of weeks and rested the area so as not to exacerbate the problem.  It still pops and cracks with great regularity, it hurts often, and my arm does not lie at my side the same as on the other side. 

I can function and do.  As with any impairment that is ignored or not treated properly though, it continues to cause a problem.  I was thinking this morning about how that had effected my life and how it could be compared to a spiritual dip, financial dip, or an emotional dip in my wellbeing.  If I am feeling anxious for a period of days and ignore it.  Soon I am in physical pain because my muscles tighten when I am tense and stressed.  I am testy with others and as the pain increases so does my crankiness.  I have trouble concentrating, I cannot muster energy to work at my full capacity and I don't enjoy life.  It affects my sleep or lack thereof.

On the other hand, if I acknowledge I am feeling anxious and talk to someone about it, write about it, and try to address the feeling.  If I have an allergy attack I take medicine.  It is the same sort of automatic self care that I am talking about here.  I use the tools I have to hand for relaxation, and peace of mind.  I stay away from volatile situations and news feeds, I blow bubbles in the backyard, I get away for a day or a few days to a place that is soothing for me.  I take a break from work and do something fun for me.  I take a walk in nature.  It doesn't relieve the problem immediately and that's okay.  Taking steps in the right direction is what is required here. 

The same thing can be applied to a temporary financial setback.  If you are having cash flow problems or the future looks bleak income wise, acknowledge it and acknowledge how it makes you feel – tense, scared, anxious, peaceful, trusting, energized, motivated…. Then address it.  For me, prayer treatment helps, as does talking to a friend.  I also make a gratitude list of all the things I have the money for and are already paid for such as rent or electricity or gas in the car.  And knowing that it like the fractured bone will heal and can heal with proper care and attention.

It helps me to know that most conditions are fluid and temporary.  Change is a constant.  Conditions and situations will evolve and so will my internal condition.  I am in a constant state of flux.  And that just makes me human.  So, accept the flow and know that this too shall pass.  Acknowledge it, address it, and allow it to heal. 

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