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Stop Overthinking It

I know, intellectually, that movement, stretching, an exercise regimen will make my life better on every level.  I want to be healthier.  Yet, my ingrained habit is to detest exercise, to dread it and to look at the difficulty instead of the benefit.  It seems out of reach emotionally and spiritually. So I don't do it.  Or I go through so much agony trying to figure out what to do, when, how and the effort seems overwhelming.  Why am I doing this to me? 

When it comes to challenges I can apply my willingness, my questioning mind to "why not try it".  When I have difficult tasks to do I can do just one minute.  Do just two minutes.  Do 5 minutes, ten minutes.  It always works and then I usually can get into the job.  Even when I am only able to get through the 10 minutes I make progress. 

The thing is I make so many things hard for myself.  Harder than they need to seem and harder than they actually are.  I put so much negative emotion into dreading things the task becomes a mountain instead of a bump in the road.   I see this pattern over and over.  I am constantly setting timers to do 5 minutes of exercise, 10 minutes of making a call, 30 minutes working on an editing job, 15 minutes paying bills, 20 minutes of stretching.  The setup and gear up portions of my daily life are my daily life.


Instead of just intellectually and emotionally questioning everything what can I do differently?  Can I apply my let go and let it be easy attitude that works so well in my relationships with others to my relationship to my daily activities and the things I need to do to keep healthy in mind, body, and spirit?  I know that my life is so much saner and more peaceful when I practice accepting things the way they are and doing what is in front of me.  Maybe that is the key.  It is certainly worth trying.  Letting go of all the angst and judgment about what I am doing, what it will take and how it will work.  Instead, I can just do what I can at any given moment and know that it is enough.  
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