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It's Starting to Make Sense


The other day, a friend said they realized in their career, that although they had been very successful, they had not taken the effort to become a craftsman. It struck a chord in me.

I thought that sounded like me. I don't like to take the time to really learn something and become expert at it - I get interested in things and I learn them well enough and even become successful, but then I stop.

I have written scripts-strategic plans-books-poetry-blogs; taught film-culture-soft skills-job skills-computer classes; I was a Feng Shui consultant; I studied for the ministry and did two funerals and a wedding; read tarot cards and created my own version of a tarot deck; became a Reiki practitioner; and so many other things.

It isn't that I cannot do any of those things and enjoy them, but I only do them for people I know or myself. I don't reach out and do it as an avocation, I don't persist in following a path to higher education or advanced study.

I always thought it was because I hadn't found the "one" thing that was my passion. I just knew when I did, I would really throw myself into it. I haven't ever found it. And I have been despairing of that for years.

Now, I see that maybe I have been passionate about several things and I did go study them, I practiced them, I learned and I passed the information on - which is one of my gifts. I just stopped when I felt I had a handle on whatever it was.

I love teaching, doing readings, Feng Shui, writing, and using my ministry to enlighten. I believe in the principles of all of these because they are all about helping people understand themselves and make their environments more compatible with their lives and goals. I want to help people reach their dreams. It is why I started The Next Step - to help people do that on a career and life level.

I kept thinking that because I never really succeeded (as an ongoing career) in any of these areas that it wasn't what I was supposed to do. Now, I see they all work together. I don't think there is "one" thing I am supposed to do.

I know I have gifts to offer, and I am not sure of the form, but somehow all this is working toward it and I have actually spent my life continuing to learn and hone my skills. It just hasn't been as directed as a person who is learning a specific craft. My craft is using my serenity, my intuition, my practicality, my quick mind, my curiosity, my detection skills, and my persistence to help myself and others improve their lives and see their own power.

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