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What You Can Do IS What You Are Supposed To Do


There are days when it is almost impossible for me to work on what I "should".  I sit down to work on a particular project and then keep allowing myself be distracted and working on other things.  The worst part is the self-recrimination tape I have running in my head giving me a hard time about not working on what I am supposed to be doing. 

When this happened the other day, I finally gave up battling between the voice in my head and my unfocused attempts to "get to work".   I refocused my attention in another direction by calling someone for information about a project, well let’s just say a project that there was no reason to work on right now, and they fired my imagination. 

I love it when my passion is ignited and I am filled with ideas.  It was great.  I worked on that project the rest of the day.  I didn't do what I was certain I should be doing, but I did do exactly what I needed to do. 

So much of my life seems to be is based on what I believe I “should be doing.”  I forget at times that I am not really the best judge of priorities.  When I cannot force myself to do something, it is best to be gentle with me – to say, "okay then what can you do?" and do it.  And let go of judgment about it because what you can do IS what you are supposed to do.


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